Guess What?!?!?!?!

I'M 18....
and I still don't understand why I can't mature.

Uncle Rick

One of the people that I have been most fortunate to have in my life is this man. The owner of Speedy Oil Change in Jackson, MI is also a attender at my church. He isn't really my uncle but I could not think of him as any less. He is in the hospital tonight for chest pains, shortness of breath. He is a great teacher of wisdom on how to treat people through the his actions. I came to the church and he treated me as family, now I am. Please pray for him.

I guess now I see the affect you have on people when you show love to whom you've met for the first time.

Priorities

So I've dug my self another hole, mostly by procrastinating every paper I am assigned to do. I would be doing that right now but agian the I just don't have it with me, the assignment. My dads pissing me off but I'm in that stage of life. He knows that somethings wrong or I should be doing some homework, whether it how I'm acting or he has been e-mailing my teacher back-and-forth. I honestly don't mind it because it keeps me accountable for the stuff I do. Anywho my dad believes that my priorities are off track, when I told him I was going to help my mom's friend Jimmy who is not capable of helping himself. I don't understand. Why can't I help myself?

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I am a rose in a garden,
Waiting to be watered.

Then cut,
And given by love.

Yet soon to wither,
Watered by tears of joy.

-Chris

A Blurr of Day Dreams

Its hard to swallow, breath, hear, and all I can think about all while I'm sick is wanting to play basketball or play some instrument. Basketball I don't know what is... I found something I enjoy to do and I always feel like I can do better. When I get on the court with the fans in the stands my mind races on how I do not want to let them down. As I have been told it makes me look like a deer with headlights in my eyes, I think to much. The reason I know I can play better is because of the times I will never forget are in the school gym between 6-8 p.m. on Sunday with a bunch of great guys. I play basketball that surprises me sometimes, but with that in mind I just keep working hoping that one game, one day I will show everyone. Show everyone what I can do. Music, wow now there is a subject that I still don't understand completely. I love any musical instrument I want to learn every instrument. now I know that's not possible but that's what I feel like every day. One of my thoughts lately is to learn guitar. I would need to start from the beginning and find the humility to admit I cannot play the guitar, but I see it as the best opportunity to write my own music. Well I think I've drifted off from my point I love both of these "Day Dreams" since in class many times I find my self awaken by the school bell and I hope some day they will not be just something I tell my kids it was my hobby/sport in school .

So what am I really trying to express here? If you have any thoughts please tell...

The sickness Cure !?!?!

The last two weeks I have been battling some kind of sickness. There many different ways to try and get better. One way is to sweat it out which is the way my dad does it most of the time, you go to bed with the heat in your room at a point where you are already are sweating then you get under the blankets with sweats on and try to sleep in a puddle of your own sweat. Works well but first I can't sleep with clothes on, second I hate to have the temp in my room higher then 65, third I can't sleep sweating. So I take my dads other approach.... Drugs, Vitamins, Juice, Tea, and more Drugs. There are a long list of things you can take I'm just going to point out there ones I'm on right now.

• Echinacea
• Vitamin C
• Zicam Spray
• Zicam Cold & Flu
• Green tea
• Grape, Apple, Orange Juice
• Honey Hot Water
• Sudafed PE
• Vick's NyQuil
• Vick's Chest rub
• Z-pack, Antibiotics
• Muncinex

They all have there purpose you can leave a comment if you want to ask a question but i prefer this cause i can still sleep, if you don't already know I have sleep problems, but that's for another entry.

Relationships

I once had someone tell me I do alot for people, I also had someone tell me I try and do to much for people. Its interesting the different aspects people take on service, I've always seen it as a way to build relationships. In relationships I find value, value that some do not understand. Every person I meet I tend to treat the Same, like family (which is a good thing), because they deserve your respect until its been taken advantage of. now that i have been blabbing on..........

A key idea in building relationships is offering to spend your time, that you could be doing something else, with them. This is how I feel I get to know people the best, i hope you can agree.

My Christmas break I spent down in PHX, Arizona to visit my aunt who i had never met before, she is a great person I noticed that when I first got there. She bought me stuff, and did a whole lot for me without me asking. After the trip I asked my father why she would spend her time and money on me. My dad said she doesn't have children or a husband, she needs some one to love on. I added that she didn't need to do that much. He stared and said she was investing in time lost with family she had waited her whole life to meet. I love my aunt Deb.

Now I guess what I'm trying to say After all that is Relationships are more Valuable when you don't have any at all.

Decisions

I hate to be sick, as I have grown I've seen if i do not make mature decisions when I am sick it could go for a longer period of time or get worse like mono.... I know now from experience. I bring this up because tonight I was offered to go to a Disciple concert, which happens to be one of my favorite Bands. Mr. Neill my bible teach from JCS offered me the tickets, I wanted to go so bad but I'm sick. Meaning I have to get better in order to perform in other aspects of my life... Basketball, School, Church, etc. So here i am listening to my CD of Decyfer Down, alone while my dad is out of town. I'm learning to take care of myself hopefully.

• Thank You Mr. Neill and Kristen

Child to Parent stages

I happened to be at a good friends house for dinner, well more like my uncle, Family... anywho. we came upon the conversation of teens trying to prove them selves to their parents (most of the time with making decisions). my dad long ago shared these stages with me-

• Birth - 12, your parents are your heroes.
• 12 - 24, your parents are out to get you, they are wrong, dumb.
• 24 - ever....., you realise that they are full of wisdom.

So as you see as teens we naturally want to be correct. when I have a child of my own I will recognise this to better understand what they are going through.

Long Distance Relationships

As I near graduation of my senior year of high school I've been thinking allot about friendships and where they will go once people go their separate ways. If you take a look at some people that have tried so hard to make it work, to see their effort not show up for anything. I just keep thinking what am I to do, cause if you know me I strive to make people happy and make relationships work which as my dad says is a curse and a blessing. I've come down to the conclusion that if I decide to not try at all to keep in touch then my own expectations will not be let down by others and myself.

My Source, My Father

Since I Just made this today, I figured I would point something out to you...If I were to have a bibliography my fathers wisdom and experiences would be one source of its own. Believe me, I will use him often. I made such a big picture of him because he is such a big part of my life, and again you will notice often.